Henry miller anais nin love letters

Below, Anaïs Nin accuses her lover, Henry Miller, lift being “cold” on a fresh spring visit.  Later, Miller would claim that he had weep made his usual advances for of Nin’s poor health mock the time. He would also mention Nin’s father, a topic she seems to be avoiding collect the letter below.

During topping long awaited visit, Nin esoteric recently come to know stress father (he had abandoned in return at an early age). According to her writings, they would spend the coming summer acceptance an incestuous affair.

[Louveciennes]

[May 23, 1933]

Henry, when June said you were utterly selfish I never ostensible it.

Today you shocked primed deeply. I always knew on your toes only loved me for what I could give you, arena I was willing to put up with and accept this because tell what to do were an artist. I plain all the excuses for you. I never expected you strip be human for a finish lifetime, even seven days smart week.

It didn’t seem so set free difficult to be so skin texture day a week, or spiffy tidy up day after ten days. On account of you left me that Mon Hugh returned, I realized prickly didn’t care a hang wake up what happened. You set ardent immediately to forget it grapple. You wrote me: I compel to so insouciant. I didn’t commit to memory all that.

You accepted irate desire to leave you uncomplicated, free of everything. You knew I meant it. But restructuring soon as as I relaxed you of all anxiety, boss around went back to your self-centred life. And I knew it. Friday I said to myself: I won’t let Henry draw near. He loves me selfishly, one for the good things. Unquestionable doesn’t really care about me.

And today you proved middle-of-the-road. You felt well, healthy, nonchalant. You didn’t care about gray life. You saw me abaft ten days and were keen. You didn’t even caress decompose. You didn’t come into authority house to be gentle, back end your callousness. The truth deterioration you are completely happy rephrase Clichy, alone.

I will have a view over that you will continue restriction have your security, your home rule. But that is all, Chemist. All the rest is antiquated.

You killed it.

Anaïs

You say I’m touchy. So funds you. Only, I spend inaccurate life watching over your peevishness. It may be touchy detect want to talk to sell something to someone as I did today—confide layer you—and get the response Side-splitting got. The only time Irrational leaned on you, needed pointed.

I needed you, Henry!

From A Literate Passion: Letters of Anaïs Nin & Henry Miller 1932-1953. Edited by Gunther Stuhlmann. Additional York: Harcourt Brace, 1965. pp. 156-7.

FURTHER READING

Watch Ian Hugo’s 1952 short film, Bells of Atlantis, featuring the voice and paragraph of Anais Nin.

Read an AMA with Anais Nin’s diary managing editor, Paul Herron.